Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
understanding
I recently watched the movie Brokeback Mountain. I had not had the chance to watch it before. I had listened to all the critical people talk about this movie and say mean things. We do this in life so much. Listen to other people opinions instead of investigating for ourselves. I LOVE this movie. It's not truly about 2 gay men. It's about true love. Unless you have loved someone and been too afraid by what your family would think or what society would think to go out on a limb and truly be with them and then lost them to death, you can't completely appreciate this movie. It is difficult for me to watch. I cry. I met a man when I was 16. I didn't fall for him then. We became friends. He was 19. I know what people think. Oh, just kids, puppy love and maybe if I would have been braver we wouldn't have made it. I don't know. I wasn't brave enough to try.
I married a man when I was 17. He was sweet while we were dating. Not so much after we were married. My husband and the other man had been friends for years. My husband slept around and hurt me. My friend was there for me in dark times and we fell for each other. He wanted me so badly to leave my husband. He knew what my home life was like. He hated what my husband did to me. My husband made me feel disgusting and worthless and my friend told me how beautiful I was. My friend told me if I ever left my husband I would always have a place with him. When I had first met my friend back when I was 16 he had told me of his heart condition. When he was very young the doctors had told him that he wouldn't live to see his 25th birthday. We were young. Nothing can hurt the young right? WRONG!!!! He died of a massive heart attack just before his 25th birthday. I left my husband a few months later. I am remarried. Mostly happily but I still think back to what if. What if I had of been there that night. I could have called the ambulance instead of his wife not wanting to be bothered because she wanted to party. He told her he didn't feel good, he wanted to see a doctor. She told him to go to bed and sleep it off. She told me at his wake that if she had of known that he was going to die she would have had an abortion and not had his baby boy. She gave him away to my friends parents as fast as she could. What if I would have been brave enough to have left my husband despite what my family and friends would have said. Would he still be alive? Would we still be together and happy? I'll never know because I wasn't brave enough!!!!
I married a man when I was 17. He was sweet while we were dating. Not so much after we were married. My husband and the other man had been friends for years. My husband slept around and hurt me. My friend was there for me in dark times and we fell for each other. He wanted me so badly to leave my husband. He knew what my home life was like. He hated what my husband did to me. My husband made me feel disgusting and worthless and my friend told me how beautiful I was. My friend told me if I ever left my husband I would always have a place with him. When I had first met my friend back when I was 16 he had told me of his heart condition. When he was very young the doctors had told him that he wouldn't live to see his 25th birthday. We were young. Nothing can hurt the young right? WRONG!!!! He died of a massive heart attack just before his 25th birthday. I left my husband a few months later. I am remarried. Mostly happily but I still think back to what if. What if I had of been there that night. I could have called the ambulance instead of his wife not wanting to be bothered because she wanted to party. He told her he didn't feel good, he wanted to see a doctor. She told him to go to bed and sleep it off. She told me at his wake that if she had of known that he was going to die she would have had an abortion and not had his baby boy. She gave him away to my friends parents as fast as she could. What if I would have been brave enough to have left my husband despite what my family and friends would have said. Would he still be alive? Would we still be together and happy? I'll never know because I wasn't brave enough!!!!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
my etsy shop
I have been working very hard trying to set up shop on etsy and sell my handcrafted jewelry. I am doing everything I can think of to get sales, using the chat rooms, facebook and other socialnetworking sites, and many other things. Now I am going to try blogging. I am a little big computer illiterate. I didn't even know what a blog was. I guess I should write a little about myself. I am a wife and mother of 3. My husband is Donovan. We've been married for 4 years, together for 6. Our children are Christopher 9, Donovan Alaric 5, and Lillian Violet 2. We are active in our community and our church. We are members of the Optimist Club and the organizers for the NFL Youth Flag Football Program in our town. Our son Christopher is a musician. He plays guitar. He is very talented. Alaric is our jock. He loves sports. Every sport offered he wants to play. Lillian is our baby and princess (Queen, Diva) made worse due to her health. She was in the NICU for 2 weeks when she was born. She was tachypnic and had jaundice and sepsis. Basically she couldn't keep her o2 stats regulated on her own and had to be on oxygen. When she was 6 months she stopped growing and was sent to a cardiologist and they found and ASD and the right side of her heart was enlarged. A month ago, on her 2nd birthday she had heart surgery to repair the ASD. It sounds much worse than it is. They went up through a vein in her leg and implanted a devise that closed the hole. She is a completely different child now. Except for the Queen Diva part. I think that's a bit worse because she has the energy to fight with you about her point of view now. My husband is a substitute teacher. He is currently enrolled in graduate school to get his masters degree to complete his teachers certificate. I am a stay at home mom. When I do work outside the home I am a care-giver for the elderly. I prefer to work in their homes and not in nursing homes or assisted living facilities. I love to read. I don't get much time for that anymore though. Suspense novels are my favorites. Dean Koontz and Stephen King are a couple of my favorite authors. I have many more favs though. Peirs Anthony is awesome if you like fantasy and a little sci-fi. My other love is jewelry. I have made jewelry for about 3 years. Practicing and improving my technique and learning new skills. I look back on some of my earlier peices and crinkle my nose. they stink. I can say that I have earned the tag Quality now. My jewelry is quality jewelry. It will last and it wears well. I wish I could keep every peice I make. I love every peice so much. My shop is shirleyborchardt.etsy.com Stop by and take a look around. I take custom orders also. The only limit is the imagination.
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